Here I am, in a situation wherein it seems like you have plans in place but how will you do that when you can’t do it, you have to wait, to earn some things before you can pursue it. Maybe this is the best time to test my patience.
The thrill in me to pursue what I want is still there, but there are cynical thoughts bursting. What if I will not make it and will regret it someday?!?
On the other hand, I want to do it for my future, for my future family and most especially for myself. There is no greater feeling than doing or having what you’ve always wanted.
I’ve been having these thoughts of being away from your family, your home and being in a new world. Maybe, right now, I’m just looking at this bad side of pursuing that dream, maybe I’ll just have to focus on the positive side of it. With His help I know and I’m confident that I will make it. This is now the right time to take that chance, and be the best that I can be.
I think it’s just right to think that there is no smooth way in taking this risk, rather than thinking that it will always be okay, with no bumpy road along the way. For in this way, I’m preparing myself on what might happen. It’s not like you want it to happen, but hoping that it will not.
I can say that right now I am in my comfort zone, a very comfy zone, but I’m ready to turn my back on that to prove something to myself. I don’t have to prove something to anyone else, but to myself alone.
Independence doesn’t mean you can do anything you want but rather doing the right things for yourself, for other people, and being able to make your own decisions, and be accountable of the consequences of it. I want to take that independence that I need. Though, right now, I can say that I’m independent, without my parents around, but still there is no greater feeling than taking that path, without them guiding you…and it’s you alone.
I know that there are people who love me and will support me in this new course that I will take. They are the one who add up the courage that I have. I just hope that they will not give up on me and I’m grateful that there are people who will help around.
About Me
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- Bacoor, Cavite, Philippines
- I have learned a lot of things. I've learned to be strong and be not affected with my emotions. I have learned to accepts things that are not acceptable just because I have no choice. I have learned to set aside my feelings and move on with my life. I know, there are more experiences and changes that will take place, good or bad, happy or sad. And for sure they will bring a lot of difference in my life. But I know, all of these things will make me a better person. =)
